15 June 2006

it has been a week after i'd submitted my portfolio. that daym portfolio. the evidence of all my works in final year. that big fat blue file. 100 cases, numerous formulary and countless evaluation from the consultants, doctors and nurses. as much as i wanted to get rid of it, there was a heavy feeling when the portfolio changed hands.

i came home that day, feeling empty. as if i've got no more purpose in my life. no more those color-coded papers lying on the floor, all books now back to the shelves. i should be happy, shouldn't i? five years of hardworks and uncertainty had finished, but i somehow feeling rather sad and ....i dont know. it's hard to describe the feeling.